Unconfirmed touchdown in leslie
so we got moved to the colleges basement
My choice to stay barren
has been confirmed!
31 Friday May 2013
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30 Thursday May 2013
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The constant struggle..
It lies within My mind, so its personal..
Where do i go, what do i do?
How can i decide… ??
The thoughts of love are as distant as Noah’s arc,
but as relevant
How can we be expected to make such a decision
Can she fit? Can she move seamlessly
throughout my circle? Where has she been all this time,
or where is she going?
I think of the one from my past, and it hurts. It hurts to know
that someone you loved so much is gone, and never
to be had again.
I look upon photographs and think what could I have done
How was she not good for me, granted
we all make sacrifices for the ones we FEEL we love..
So i sacrificed,
as so did she.
Is it even possible to find tha Lost One..
Ive been through the maze,
Ive made the journey, and yet
I havent even begun. Didint even
break the seal…
So Im here…
Confused and discouraged
Constant reminders of why you stay,
as much as why you left. Is it time
to ACTUALLY quit “The Game” , and become one?
One with myself, my life, and my love?
How do I start over , when I’ve never honestly
began in the first place..
Why even be in the race?
I just dont know..
I have no clue.
I am for the first time in my life…
Speechless
Maybe thats my answer right there..
Speechless??
29 Wednesday May 2013
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I’ve been thinking a lot
on Waldorf salads.
How can a salad
crush a soul
more efficiency than a soul in crush.
There is nothing more horrifying to me,
these days, than a perfectly
innocuous salad.
28 Tuesday May 2013
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Enjoying a morning of contemplative alone time.
Thinking about how delicious a breakfast sandwich really
is after not eating a real meal for two days.
Thinking about the kindness of friends and strangers,
who brought me ginger ale and carried my bags
Thinking about how fragile we are, and what amazing
performers can do for our souls.
Thinking about how wonderful it is to here,
and how lucky I am to be
27 Monday May 2013
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After eating a large meal
of raw sea crustaceans (you had to peal off
the hard shell, which revealed
shapeless but firm squid-like
meat with several moving tendrils,
then dip it in a creamy butter sauce
with basil.
The meal made me very ill)…
I went to the opera house and saw
a modernist work called “Polygon.”
26 Sunday May 2013
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that song in all
of its many incarnations has always haunted me:
simple enough, I suppose, & yet
it’s like, is that lesson even possible?
WHAT WILL BECOME OF US?
25 Saturday May 2013
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Good news people!
The chicken we thought was lost
(dead)
was just hiding
in the shed!!!!
24 Friday May 2013
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My nighthawks are back,
heard them last night
Alway glad
to hear them, brings back
good memories of my hometown
and the nighthawks that flew around St Francis
Xavier church and school parking lot
in the summer.
23 Thursday May 2013
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I think I never updated you all
about my cat.
He came home.
He still has the heart of the stray
but
22 Wednesday May 2013
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My heart burst
into a fine powder
today after the passing
of my sweet grandpa.
He was my Earth angel.
He is at peace…
as is my heart.
It will just take some time.